61 visitors to my blog on the 1st day, and tons of likes. Thank you all so incredibly much for stopping by. I have wanted to start a blog for sometime, but with the time constraints of kids and work and chores, it leaves me very little time for my photography or blogging! Something moved me yesterday and worked through me, and made me type up the 1st and 2nd blogs quickly and put them up without hesitation or embarrassment. I don’t know why, maybe it’s because I am a shy person, but it feels weird just to put your real emotions out in the world for anyone to see. It’s a vulnerability that must be overcome to effect positive change and real discussions about our true issues and problems. I pushed through cleaning my kitchen and in a few hours when supper rolled around, there I was staring down a filthy kitchen once again. It is something I have tried to accept and embrace since becoming a mother, that responsibility and worries become endless once you enter the realm of motherhood, yet something is chipping away at my soul every time I have to get back to doing stuff I perhaps would prefer not to be doing. I guess it’s a balance that I am struggling to find. I can say that writing my feelings and putting them out there yesterday was also very therapeutic for me. It feels good not to care what anyone else thinks of you, and to love yourself and put your creative talents out into the world. It’s funny because I never really considered myself creative or to be particularly good at writing. It’s amazing what happens when you just sit down and try. I also feel like it is a divine guidance that gives me the inspiration and drive to actually do something. We all need to listen to our hearts closely and ask what we can do to help someone else and try to make the world a better, happier, and beautiful place to live and enjoy this crazy thing called life. I am sure one day when my child is out of the toddler phase and hopefully done with the ear infections, I will look back at my frustrations feeling I overreacted. The truth is, raising kids is hard, and we shouldn’t feel any shame for feeling emotions that have been around since human beings have existed. There is a reason we feel these emotions, and in feeling that out, and learning how to cope instead of avoid, we can hopefully mitigate the tougher years in our lives. Can’t have a rainbow without a little rain, right?